Sunday, October 12, 2008

I'M BACK....and this is a very long blog.

It has been much to long since my last post and I have learned a lot since that last post. Since my last entry I visited New York City and had a life changing experience at the UN. I had a rejuvenating visit to Utah for my Grandparents 50th Wedding Anniversary and joined with the millions of other Bostonians who had to move on the 1st of September. I fell into a relationship and fell out of a relationship, I started school and hosted Apartment FEST I and II where Val and friends painted our room, made IKEA furniture, target and hardware store stops, bought a loft bed off of Craigslist and got lost in Quincy for two hours trying to find the couple who we were supposed to pick the bed up from. I have been choreographing and working on getting an outreach group up and running. Life is busy, Life is beautiful and I KNOW THAT GOD LOVES ME!!

What I have learned about the UN:
The UN is overrated it is full of a lot of people trying to do the right thing but get caught in bureaucratic tape and seem to talk themselves in circles. The most powerful experience I had while in New York was coming to realize how real things such as rape, aids and global warming really are and how important it is to stand up and do something about those who have been abused.
Something that I was really struck with was how much I need to be reaching out to others and using my talents to help those in need. In many ways I was out of place at this conference as a dance major it seemed funny to be rubbing shoulders with the owners and entrepreneurs of NGO’S and NPO’S from all over the world, but then I realized I can use my art to help raise funds for specific groups that I feel really driven and passionate about. My voice can be heard, it’s simply a matter of going out and “making my day work.” it made me realize that what I chose to do with my life is important and I began to finally feel at peace for choosing to live this creative and unconventional life style. For a long time I would always down play that fact that I wanted to pursue the arts but after talking to a lot of different people at this conference the spirit bore witness to me that this is what I am supposed to be doing right now and I can do a great deal of good with the talents that God has blessed me with.
Something else that really struck me while in New York was the power of our law and our freedom of speech and ability to voice what we believe to be true and right and how important it is to have righteous lawyers and judges. There are so many people in today’s world without integrity that would be willing to sell someone out for three pieces of silver and frankly it scares me, and it causes me to wonder what has happened to the honest and valiant? I feel like this is starting to sound like I have lost faith in humanity… I haven’t, but I was awakened into truly realizing that we get on our knees and pray to God with all our might and then get up off our knees and go to work following the commandments with integrity and steadfastness because this is how we are able to accomplish great things and truly help our brothers and sisters. When we have lawyers and judges who understand this concept it becomes easier to rely on

So relationships are funny things, actually they are beautiful and I truly have gained a testimony of relationships because I believe that that is what this life is about: Relationships and change. As I have grown closer to my Savior my hope in humanity has grown helping my faith increase and become brighter and my ability to really feel of the pure love of Christ, which is Charity, charity towards all those with whom I associate with.
On a side note a friend of mine sent me this quote and I liked it, if you change the ending to say that the “ greatest relationship of all is between you and God.”

"I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging, and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself."

Along with learning about relationships with others and with GOD I have felt extremely empowered as a women in the 21st century with painting our apartment paying rent, electricity, an gas bills. I love life, it is hard, stressful, and beautiful!!


Jay McCarthy said...

Very interesting. I've long suspected the UN is overrated. They're not miracle workers, so we can't just foist any problem on to them... we have to do something ourselves.


Chase said...

Hey, It's been a while....
I found your blog when I happened on Val's, and this was a pretty intense post; it definitely is a step above the norm. It also gave me the answer to a question I've been carrying around for the past few weeks, it was just there. Keep up the writing, you've got a gift for it.